I hope most of you are familiar with the analogy of the relational love-tank?(Credit to Dr. Chapman for the concept).
If my love-tank is full, my wife’s love to me is very real to me. Even when a tough time comes up, I am likely to have enough “love in my tank” to make it through to the other side. The catch is that I can’t fill my own love-tank; I can only fill my wife’s tank. All I can do for myself is to try and be receptive to the love my wife is trying to give me.
Now, I never thought of it like this before, but I think I also have a love-tank in my relationship to God. I can’t fill my tank, but I can show my love to him in many ways.
The problem is my own love tank is running low! In many ways this is so much like marriage; I know God loves me, and I trust him, but his love just isn’t very real to me at the moment.
I was talking to him about it, and I think he showed me where the problem lies. I’m not really receptive to his love (I can’t see it) due to a way that I am thinking. And this is where I hope you guys and gals will help me:
I believe that suffering is a good and necessary ingredient to every Christian’s life; it comes to us all at different times and in different guises. I do think this is the truth, but I think that I have misjudged God’s feeling about it…
I have said (and agreed with statements) that imply that God doesn’t care to make us suffer. He is unaffected when we experience trouble; there is no real compassion when we are troubled – all in the name of his love and care for us of course!
I think this has killed the warmth of love in my heart. My heart is afraid to receive love from God, because it expects the cold shoulder the moment the rubber hits the road. I can see how my hard-core attitude has really not been kind to my soft and sensitive heart.
My request is this: What revelation from scripture do you have about God’s attitude to godly and holy suffering? (Not suffering as a consequence of sin, or general suffering in the fallen world).
I know that this is something I’ll have in the back of mind as I continue to read the Word.